STILL MISSING YOU

©2014 Wayne Box Miller

It’s been over 30 years

And I still feel the pain

Of you not being here

Not being able to call out your name

I can finally do things for you now

But I don’t have the chance

Like bring you gifts and beautiful flowers

Or share a silly impromptu dance

Or drop something in your hand

And say don’t’ worry its’ on me

Yet still get in trouble

Because I forgot to say please

I don’t know why this year

It seems so hard

Maybe walking down the aisles

Seeing lots of Mothers Day cards

And I want to cry a river

I want to drown in my own tears

So I wipe my eyes with memories

Reminiscing about you being here

I’ll use all the photographs

So we can chat face to face

Talk to you about my problems

Show you I learned all about grace

Let you see my growth

So you can exhale and laugh

I get to hear you say I’m hard headed

And thank GOD some of that has passed

I think I’m laughing now

This must be therapy

I still miss you Momma

For what you meant to me

And as I see my friends celebrate

With a mother like you

I find it so bittersweet

But I know this to be true

They’re as lucky as me

If they know what I know

That having a mother for any period of time

Is just good for your soul

The pinnacle of love

The greatest protector of all

All about correction

Always answered the call

Holds you accountable

And you know she was right

She knew what you needed

Before the need was in sight

Oh man this is hard

For my friends first go-round

Mothers Day without their Mothers

I hate the way that sounds

But we take comfort in knowing

The love will always remain

Because once you’ve been love by a mother

You will never be the same

Because once you’ve been loved by a mother

You realize how much she sheltered your pain

Because once you’ve been loved by a mother

That love can never be taken away

Happy Mother’s Day…